100th!!!

Boy oh Boy I did it, 100 Posts!

Lately my life has been full of revelations, and complete honesty...

It has been almost too overwhelming at times to experience my current transformation, and also it excites me, and yes it all also makes me afraid of losing my sense of self? But then I ask myself, was that really me to begin with?

The Song 'You Found Me' by The Fray has become one of my favorites, I listen to it often, and yes right now as I type this...

The first line I love:

'I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad...'

When I hear that song, I want to cry, and smile all at the same time...

When I was 24 something really horrible happened to me, and since then in 3 years I have come 1000 x a 1000 miles from who I once was....

But it hasn't all been flying high at the top of the mountain type moments either, when God remolds the clay, he has to reshape it, add water, and it is painful and exciting, and in my opinion so worth it...

I now know what the term 'growing pains' means...

This month God brought back everyone who had ventured off into the world, I hadn't seen some of them in over a year or more, and I felt overwhelmed with joy, and immediately with sorrow, because I knew they would all be leaving again...but this time bitterness stayed away, tears were not in high precipitation, and the bonds felt so warm and true when they left...and I was so thankful, instead of feeling sorry for myself and being sad to be all alone again...

God is so good to me...