I left my last post up a while on purpose....

And the 'eyes' that are apparently watching know why!

But as I have been doing, I am moving on from that...I have moved on with my life, taking it at full force and charging forward no matter what type of obstacles come my way...

I have learned to not live in my past anymore, although at times this blog helps me get thoughts/revelations out, it is a good canvas to paint the portrait of my healing on...

This morning I woke up quite early and now as I sit here and after I watched the sun come up I felt overwhelmed with happiness...

Now some of you may think, hmmm but you are going through so much Kelly?

Yes I am, and the darkness from my past is there at the moment, but I have and will prevail, and a wash of thanksgiving came over me, that he gives such peace in the midst of chaos!

One of my favorite songs, and yes I have many, and they are all different genres, is Beauty and the beast, by Celine Dion...

It makes me smile, 'both a little scared...neither one prepared...'
reminds me of Jay and I in a way, although neither of us looks like a beast LOL!

I also realized nothing is ever going to kill my love with Jayson, nothing and NOBODY...
God forged us together, and this fall we celebrate 10 years being best friends, 9 years together!
We have been through so much over those years, a few hard times in there, one losing his Mom, another my claiming my freedom 3 years ago....the best decision I ever made in my life!

God is good to me!