I have made up my mind, in a couple weeks I am going to start the process to get my Phoenix Tattoo!

I have wanted this for a long time, but I am ready for it, the pain lasts a little while but the meaning and the reasons why I want it will be with me forever!

I have been going back and forth for three years about this, but this is my year!

I am not sure if I am getting it on my upper back or my right calf???

The Phoenix for me is rebirth, freedom, a coming out of the ashes symbol, as I have definitely come out of the ashes a few times...especially three years ago....when I made that decision that changed my life for the GOOD forever, and I finally started to transform into the Woman God wants me to be!

If my parents were in the picture I am definite that they would be very upset, but they're not, and that was also another thing, was I wanting this because for so long my parents (if you can call them that) did not want me to have it, and the answer is no, I am getting it now to signify all that I have overcome in my life...and it was alot, and is still alot...

I am excited and scared all at the same time...

I have decided it is going to be a cross of two different images, plus of course the artists stuff:


I want it to look feminine, not hard like I have seen them done before...

It is exciting!!!