Here I am on the Eve before my 28th Birthday...

This picture was taken when I was about 4-6 months I would say...

When I was born I was a premee, born 2 1/2 months early...

My Mom said then that I couldn't wait to get into this world...

I am sure if I knew then what I know now I would of been more patient...

Gosh look at that face...that little girl has no idea about anything, or how she got here...

I am having a hard time even being excited about my Birthday...

I have a Mother who has turned her back on me, and really has never loved me...

My Biological Father beat my Mother senseless alot, and especially while she was pregnant with me....

My Mom hemorrhaged a few times and almost lost me...

My beginning was hard I would admit, and also I would wonder how my end is going to be then???

LOL...

I have a hard time connected to my past, I do not know if that is weird...

But I am just not that little girl in the above picture anymore, and I have not been for a while now...

Sometimes I think God wanted me here bad enough, I mean my Mom almost lost me twice, and had me really early, and I am here...almost 28 years later...

Can someone feel so full and content in life and empty at the same time?

Cause I feel that way...

Well... 2:45am is when I was born, and on a Tuesday!!!

Happy Birthday to me I suppose...

Birthday Prayer/Wish for my 29th:

That I feel much better than I do at this very moment!

Here is an odd video, Love the song, video is really odd...