chaos could be happening all around me, or involving me, and i have this uncanny peace about it lately?

i kind of have this up yours attitude about life lately...maybe because i have been through so much since before christmas health wise?

it is refreshing, and also scary, because my whole life up until late has been one big worry ball...

i guess i just realize that i have nothing to loose but loads to gain...

i guess i just realized i need to get enjoying life and not worrying about how to live it, just live it...

i still need some work in some areas in my life, but i think we all do to some degree...

but i am honestly happy...and that is what really matters...