Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Stuck

Today was a good day, my blood pressure was down for once, why you may ask? Elijah was back to school today!!!

I was so nice from 9:15am-2:45pm every day of the week he is gone, and today it was quiet, serene, nice...

Tonight it is to the Movies with me with Erika and Katherine, I have not been to the movies since The Lake House with Jo, and that was way back......

I have been currently planning Jayson's 30th Birthday Bash coming up, and then got to thinking about what I might do? or really if it is worth it?

I never had girlfriends who were like, let's take Kelly out on the town and celebrate, or throw me a party ever, growing up my Mom never cared enough, for my sweet sixteenth birthday we had boiled hot dogs and microwaved fries and I was allowed to only have one friend over, and ya.......

I love good food and good conversation and laughter......I suppose that is why I always make sure my boys and Jay have parties etc LOL!

Anyway, I have not died due to the lack there of so....MEH!

Pray for me too, I am going through some emotional things that I will not go into detail here, some letting go issues I need to address, and things about self-worth, and feeling loneliness.....I really do not feel like I can talk to anyone about any of it because I am convinced that they do not want to hear any of it, and I do not want to bring anyone down around me, that is not who I am nor what I want to become...........

*i long for the smell of being in my grandmoo's arms...

2 comments:

Aphra said...

I'm praying for you Kelly!

I'd hear what you have to say, whether it be up or down, if only my life weren't so crazy busy.

I have a car now, so I could drive over to see you!

Anonymous said...

because, of course, who on EARTH would want to hear what actually goes on inside our heads. This is not true of course.