Sweet Caress of 3am

All my life I have been told both verbally and non-verbally that I am not good enough...

I spent years trying to be someone or something that I was not...

And now when I am myself I am constantly doubting myself, and worrying if by simply just being myself is ok...

And I am sick and tired of people, just sick and tired, of the people who can't take me as I am!

I think I am a nice person, I mean I love being hostess and helping others in need, I always have my ear out if anyone needs something and I can help them as well...

I am a polite person, yet I am strong in my convictions and my morals as I see the Bible and my God lays them out for em clearly...

But will I ever be enough, just me, just Kelly?

I know one person who I am enough for, even in my darkest, and ugliest hour, and that is indeed my God!

I suppose people can have alot of friends throughout life, but only a couple of real true blue kindred (yes I said kindred) friends, the ones you can count on no matter what....

And for that I am thankful for....to look forward to that throughout my life.......

I need to let go before this eats me up from the inside...