Have you ever sat at your computer and you play a song, and you just become paralyzed and your mind takes you away from the present? You travel away, you achieve clarity, and feelings you have not felt in years surface, and you never realized they were there, stored away in a box in your mind/heart marked to forget…

I listened to a lot of Goo Goo Dolls as a teenager, Black Balloon, Iris, all their songs hold memories for me, trigger something if you will…

I listened to a lot of music growing up…it was and sometimes still is my coping mechanism…

How pathetic I must of looked to an outsider looking in, a girl sitting in front of her stereo being taken away in her mind, and at times singing along, dreaming of a life she thought at the time she could never have…

I spent a lot of time doing that, trying to escape, even if just in my mind, I spent a lot of time thinking…I still think a lot, but never to escape, to reflect at times yes, but I do not need to escape anything now…

I am achieving a lot of clarity lately, God has been awesome with laying out simplicity, and laying out what I need to see and what needs to be done.

“because tonight is the night the world begins again…”