70th Post!

My last post probably scared alot of you away, however it was how I was feeling, hence the word 'was'.

I can be pretty intense, but I rather be intense, passionate, and outgoing than anything else, because God made me this way, he gave me this personality, we are all so caught up in trying to change for others, but whether we change or not God loves us just the same, he knew what he was doing when he was molding us, he never said it would be easy, he never said the flesh would not get to us sometimes, he never said that, what he did say is that in spite of it all, he would remain with us, and still love us...just as we are. When I 'was' feeling oppressed and felt alone I was not, he was here, and I knew that, but I had to go through that, to feel that, to have that release.......

I have been watching Joyce Meyer alot, everyday at 10am on Vision, and she is awesome, and it is awesome I am even watching it, I mean do not get me wrong I read the bible, go to church etc but I committed to watching her so I can receive some outside teachings while here at home taking care of the kids etc...

She has been talking about frustration and then yesterday talked about letting go and loving yourself for who you are and to stop wishing you had what Mr.Jones has or wanting constantly and not being satisfied with what you have, what the Lord gave you....all things I needed to hear...

I finally realized God made me this way for a reason (well many but here's one) he wants me to be intense, passionate, and outgoing so I can be compassionate for others and their situations, and by making me outgoing it allows me reach out without fear. How many people are too afraid to reach out to the lost? Especially because it goes outside their comfort zone? Exactly, and if you really know me, you know I am bold at times, and willing to stand up for God regardless of what anyone thinks, as long as it glorifies him!

I am happier today.....still missing everyone abroad, but okay, and no not just Jo, I know alot of you assume that is the only person I am talking about(some of you had made comments to me) when I make statements that I miss people abroad, of course I miss her, but I have alot of friends now out there, scattered around the world doing God's wonderous works, all carrying me in their hearts, and I remain here praying for them all, and loving them, uplifting them, and when they come home I will be here with my arms open.......

Well, only 30 more posts Aphra and I get to have my 100th party LOL!

Blessings.