Been watching this show for the heck of it, One Tree Hill, I mean it really is dumb, but this girl sang this song, and it struck a chord in me...
This Thursday I register my baby boy for SK at Lord Strathcona Public School....
Perhaps that is where some of my sadness comes from me?
He has grown so much, such an amazing boy, no longer that baby I held once in my arms, I was so scared, I had this little life in my arms, so fragile, and the whoa feeling of God giving this creation to me to raise, take care of, it was intense, as my love for him is, as the person I am...
He drives me nuts most days, I have held much stress lately because of him, but BUT I always love him, even amongst all the grief I go through with him, even with all the guilt I feel because his Daddy is always in so much pain and sometimes can not be there with him when he wants, and he is so young he does not understand, but the gift of compassion my son has and I am truly thankful for!
I am also thinking alot about why I stopped singing in front of people, and no I am not saying I am all that either, I am saying I had such passion when I sang in my heart you know, and things happened...........foolish I was I think.....
Elijah started soccer last night, he was great, and well behaved and actually got off the sidelines and actually played, last year it took a few weeks for him to warm up to play...I was so proud, as I sat in my new Canadian Chair, yes Red chair, I wanted to match his team!
I leave you with this song, that I love to sing along with, makes me teary eyed each time as well, it is beautiful...
"Oh the quiet child awaits the day when she can break free
The mold that clings like desperation
Oh mother don't you see I've got
To live my life the way I feel is right for me,
Say it's not right for you
But it's right for me..."
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