My favorite type of day is when it is owl light, and the rain comes pelting down, and there is no lightning, no thunder at all, and the wind is slow and sweet...

On days like this I would love to (I do not always get the chance) to stand in the rain and just feel...

Make sense?

I also love days where it has rained all night and the dawn comes with warmth and you can smell the rain / dew evaporating it is awesome...

I am a feeler...

And for so long I have felt like that has been my downfall with alot of things...

But I have decided it is not my downfall, and have embraced it full on...

The enemy has held a lie against me my whole life.....................

That depression, caused from my intensity will haunt me, or will even occur...

I suffered as a teen with loads of emotional things, and found myself wanting to end it all on more than one occasion, and then found myself on antidepressants, they messed me up alot...

Thing is God gave me this heart, and asked me to feel, and I denied many feelings within myself alot over the years, afraid to really allow myself to feel them, feeling like people would find me to intense and run, well I have a new attitude on all of it....

"Sod 'em all if they can't handle my intensity!"

I know a few of you who have waited for me to say this, and finally that day is here...

I think it better to be a person who feels with their whole being, who is genuine, who is faithful, passionate, convicted, then a cold dead shallow zombie fish!

Enjoy this song...It is exactly how I am feeling right now!