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Tracey was Jayson's Mother,who for almost 4 years fought with Lung/then brain Cancer...

That journey, by her side was the most painful thing I ever witnessed thus far in my life...

I will never forget her smell, her hugs that were unbelievable, all the words that were spoken in those last moments that I saw her alive...

She was the strongest woman I had ever met in my life, and still is...

I will never forget that night, the phone call I made to Jay as he was with her at her side, telling him to tell her that she would not be forgotten, and that it was okay to go, to not suffer anymore, and that her legacy would carry on, that there would be more grandchildren, not just Elijah, and most importantly I told him to tell her how much we loved her...

Oh God....this is hard to type.....

I just was hit with the reminder that Jayson was with her when she went, and to think how hard that was to watch his Mommy die...even a man with such faith....

20 minutes after I got off the phone with Jay that night and after he whispered all that in her ear, she died...

I never cried so much in my life that night, for me, for Jay, for Tracey, and for my son who was asleep and oblivious to the cruel plague that just took his Grandma away, and it pained me so to have to greet him in the morning and tell him of the loss, the loss of the woman he loved so much...his Grammy...