Do you ever witness something so profound, so moving, it leaves you still and nothing else is moving around you, you hear no noise, it is silent and still and all that is, is this moment, this profound experience?....

I have felt that way a few times...

Have you ever been so sad that it is beyond tears, you just sit there, and no tears flow, but you are in such anguish, sitting there, staring into the void, so sad you can not even muster up a tear or sound from your body...

I have...

You ever wonder what if? Or wonder if you made a decision a little differently where would you be now?...Have you ever thought okay I am one way but secretly in my heart I know I am this whole other person that is so very different than what people see, the desires, the wants, the likes, dislikes are all different?

Sometimes I feel that way...

Do you ever escape in your mind when you hear a particular song and go far away from where you currently are?

I do sometimes, most mornings really, when I sit here listening to music...

Does all this make me a liar? or that I am living a lie?

I don't think so..I think it is okay to dream and to think of what if or what could be, that is the point to turn the what if's in to what could be's......

But in saying all this I have no regrets at all about my choices...

Make sense?
I am sure I don't to some of you...but I get it...