I am feeling it is time for me to write a letter to the one group of people that I referred to in a recent post...

I am scared to, emotional about it as well...

But a face to face I think would not go over so well with him...

Plus when I am mad I tend to cry and I am often unable to get my feelings out properly...

With writing I seem to get it all down the way I need it to be, and with God's help...

I am also feeling the need to pray alot before my pen touches the paper...

I have this fear if I tell him how I am feeling he will 'drop me'...and another part of me says if he does that so be it, he was not worth it anyways...

I care and love both groups of people so much...I am sitting here in tears because being in the middle of all this is draining and it all hurts so much...

It has now gotten so bad Elijah is asking why this person hates the other person, and he goes ion to tell me that he loves them so they should love each other, out of the mouth of babes right!

I hate any form of confrontation, not that my writing a letter will be, but I can not live like this anymore.......I should come home from Church feeling uplifted not sad and depressed because of both groups of people bad mouthing each other to me...etc etc...

Please Pray...

The previous post where I talked about this more is dated August 16th, 2009.