Most mornings I begin with a cold bottle water, and I sit here at the computer listening to music and checking e-mails, and writing.......

Growing up (I have just realized this) I realize I was not really loved by my parents, not the proper way atleast....I remember spending alot of time in my room praying to be taken away from such a place....feeling sad, wondering what was wrong with me? was I a mistake? and no child should ever feel that way...

I am currently listening to 'Dance with my Father' by Luther Vandross....the love in that song, was never present in my upbringing...but it is ok, I am actually not that upset, because God has provided me with a Christian Family that loves me deeply...and I have always vowed to enver have my kids feel that way ever...

Different Songs affect me in different ways, songs I heard at a paticular time in my life, when I hear them again, I go back to that moment, those feelings, and I just read about a new song my gal April likes now after hearing it with her sister, 'Unwritten' by Natasha Beddingfield...

When my best friend Jo first ever left for Austrailia this song I heard shortly after and it was an awakening for me, I remember the e-mail I sent her, I was bursting with revelations about myself, then I had realized that my life is a book, and each page is currently being written, and the dirty windows of my past can be cleaned....April reminded me of that day, and I really needed it today...to be reminded of those feelings, and revelations.....

So thank you my lovely April!!!

(was gone just got off the phone with her actually LOL!)

Well, I am having a good day, moving forward, not looking back, it only can get better from here as I always say!

Hugs to April and Jo!