Okay here I am water in hand and back at it another day...

I have a situation I need advice on...

I have this friend and no one likes her, well to be fair people like her but not these two very important people in my life (no not Jayson, he likes her)...anyway these two important people have had a run in with her a long time ago, and still hold it against her, and I find myself torn in a sense because when we are all together at Church I feel like I have to choose sides or areas etc...

I get so frustrated after being at Church because those two important people put her down and on occasion 'she' puts them down to me and here I am in the middle...My heart breaks because 'she' has in my opinion changed, not that I knew her then, and she has been there for me lately more than these two important people...

I should not be coming home from Church every Sunday wanting to lay in my bed and cry...It hurts my heart when either group says something negative about the other, and while one group does not let go of the past the other I have caught in a few lies about the other group (confusing I know)...and I feel like both groups want me to choose, although none has really said anything of the sort....

I am in a predicament......

I have so much going on my life I mean I really do not think these two groups of people that I care about understand, and that this all is stressing me out and causing an emotional stir within me that I rather not feel...

Everyday I wake up and have alot that lays on my shoulders , I mean I am not complaining, it is my family and I will do anything for all my boys(yes referring to Jayson as boy LOL), and having extra added stress does not make anything easier..obviously...

I am feeling a leading from God telling me to start to stand up for the people I love, meaning when either Group speaks negatively about the other, no matter how much I hate conflict I am going to have to voice my frustration and how it hurts me when they speak that way....And if both groups do really truly care about me, they will not begrudge me for it...but if one does, better I know now before too much gets invested...

To some of you these groups of people may be obvious to you, I mean their identity, but please respect my choice to not reveal them on here, And no the 'her' is not you April LOL......

It just makes me want to cry, and makes me not want to go to Church....but I will LOL...

Hopefully today is better then alot of Sundays of yesterday....

'The Shadows of your past are holding your Future Hostage!'