2010

Happy New Year!

I woke up this morning with the song 'Fireflies' by owl City in my head...

I was happy, and ready to face this New Year...

This year for me is all about trying new things, having more confidence, and find out truths about myself and my life in the past, which include finding my biological father, something that terrifies me but I need to have some final closure about...

Here is a list of what I do not call resolutions but my goals:

-get my Diabetes in order
-go to dentist
-go to physio for my back
-continue the search to find my biological father
-save money each month for surprise in the Fall
-do more correspondence non-electronically
-stop eating chips etc
-actually go on a date with my husband minus kids
-grow my hair out and grow it long
-take my kids to a picnic on wolfe island
-go square dancing minus kids
-actually go on my first trip to a corn maze
-go to woodenheads again
-get a tattoo?
-sing more
-move into a bigger apartment
-go for more mani/pedi's
-try to stop apologizing all the time for being me
-have more confidence
-make an edible carrot cake
-make my top 30 to do list before I am 30
-try creme brule
-help people more than I already do

And usually every year I think of a prayer, so here goes:

Dear Lord,

Please allow mercy and grace over me and my family and those whom I love this new year...Give me strength to stand on my two feet and be confident, remind me of my goals when I conviently forget, and hold me accountable...I can not do anything on my own concerning my health Lord, please place your hand on me in that area and help me stay committed to taking better care of myself..and if I am meant to find my biological father I know you will open doors and if not I know you will close those doors and heal me of that so I can finally move on...Be with my friends who struggle financially, emotionally, physically, mentally, and be with those who suffer from addictions in multiple forms...Be with my Husband as he suffers daily, and I thank and Praise you for making both my boys so compassionate towards others, and making them in some cases a light in the darkness with certain people, thank you for surrounding me with loving people that are nto afraid of my life and all the busyness and sometimes emotional rawness it has...Thank you for never leaving us last year and for your enduring promise that you will always be here regardless...I pray you bless all whom I love this New Year and continue to remain with them and give them strength to face whatever, and if whatever crosses their path...Be with all whom I love that are scattered across the earth, and let them know that we love them and think of them always...Thank you for another great year, a year of reflection and healing as well as thanksgiving, and thank you for being ever present, and Lord give us strength to pursue you even more, and indulge in your word, and make your will known, we love you Lord, in your Holy name, Amen.

Hugs and Love to All, Here is that Song now...