Lyrics

I'm not a stranger,
No I am yours,
With crippled anger,
And tears that still drip sore.

A fragile flame aged,
Is misery,
And when our hearts meet,
I know you see.

I do not want to be afraid,
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in,
I'm tired of feeling so numb,
Relief exists I find it when,
I am cut.

I may seem crazy,
Or painfully shy,
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden,
If you would just look me in the eye,
I feel alone here and cold here,
Though I don't want to die,
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside.

I do not want to be afraid,
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in,
I'm tired of feeling so numb,
Relief exists I find it when,
I am cut,
Pain,
I am not alone,
I am not alone...

I'm not a stranger,
No I am yours,
With crippled anger,
And tears that still drip sore.

But I do not want to be afraid,
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in,
I'm tired of feeling so numb,
Relief exists I found it when,
I was cut.


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The above song is both scary and beautiful...

Often as I am seen....and that is my opinion...

I use to actually cut myself when I was a teenager...

Now if I get a paper cut I whine, even ask Jayson...

Today Is November 24th, and exactly 9 years ago I took a step forward with Jayson, in Faith and Love, and we started to date on this day...

I was a scared girl then, 19 and scared of being hurt again, rejected, and in the warmth of Jayson's arms I found my life, my safety, and through him 2 exact months later I became a Christian (Jan 24th)...

I'd hate to admit it, but 50% of the time I am still that scared girl, the source (s) of fear of just changed...

Alot of the above Lyrics still hold some sort of truth in my life, but I am working on it, slow and steady I am with the Father's help...